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I’m
seeking a way out of this confusion.
During the breakup of my first marriage, as I now realize, everything
seemed bleak. I was consoled
by my boyhood chum Jack Hartwig. He
commented that he thought that my problem was that I thought too much.
It’s hard for me to admit that maybe thinking (and by extension,
feeling) is not the answer to internal problems. It may be the same as trying to fix something that is
broken by using the broken thing itself.
This may be a way of recognizing multiple
components within my (our) personality.
This might, also, be a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde in the making.
We’re taught to believe that the lighted path is better than the
darkened way. Yet, other than
the difficulty of dealing with the unknown, the dark is equivalent to the light.
Sometimes the shortest distance between two points is not a straight
line. (Consider tunneling
through a mountain, rather than walking around it.)
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5.
I don’t
know why I’ve altered the date. This
card is in the position for February 24, 1996.
The date on the card August 3, 1983 is the date of
this entry from my bound journal (Volume I.)
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