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Why should I who lives a diverse life and am more productive than most others, feel I am an underachiever?
Now, years later, I read this card and I am amazed at my silence throughout the development of this piece of art. Not once have I mentioned the blossoming affair I was having with Barbara. Letters, phone calls and a few long-distanced visits. She represented a change, someone, something new, not necessarily better but new. Marianne, bless her, seemed to pull away more each day almost as if to encourage me to leave and begin a new chapter. At this point I have turned the problem inward. I believe it is a matter of my own makeup, not a matter of externals. I blame myself for the sorry mess I’m creating, rather than reveling in the joy of creation.
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